All day today I felt as if I had a very large golf ball stuck in my throat. It is the feeling you have when you are on the verge of tears and doing everything in your power not to bawl in front of someone. I know you know this feeling, that big painful gulp feeling. That is how I felt for much of the day. CJ went to Kindergarten. It was a great day! He really liked it. His teacher Mrs. S is lovely. She sings, she is beautiful like an angel. She is a mother. She lives in my neighborhood. Our school is in our neighborhood. I love it so! The walls sparkle with newness. The teachers smile and seem to love their jobs. Yet today was HARD. I worried alot. How will he...... know to.........fill in the blank.......................
Tonight after bath I held CJ a little longer than usual. For once I was not rushing to get he and Mason to bed so I could clean something, read something, or watch something. I sat with him, and I cuddled him. I smelled his clean post bath hair. I held him so tight. And he did not see, but I cried for just a few quiet minutes with his back to me, because I am smart enough to know how precious that moment was with my sweet baby boy.............











Tonight after bath I held CJ a little longer than usual. For once I was not rushing to get he and Mason to bed so I could clean something, read something, or watch something. I sat with him, and I cuddled him. I smelled his clean post bath hair. I held him so tight. And he did not see, but I cried for just a few quiet minutes with his back to me, because I am smart enough to know how precious that moment was with my sweet baby boy.............




































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